It’s often the simplest, most ordinary moments that make my heart wonder. This Sunday dinner around the table is one of those times. I’m sitting in a chair in the yard, the July sky as beautiful as ever, and my heart is swept away by the beauty that is our family. It’s as if I were looking at a work of art, as if I were listening to a symphony.
In these simplest, most ordinary moments my heart is overcome with gratitude. I love this destination although I’m uncertain of how I arrived. I think of moments when I was sure life was on a path to somewhere else - somewhere void of light and laughter and loving – somewhere less than whole. So, taking in beauty when I once believed I would arrive at brokenness is an unexpected gift and I'm humbled.
This simplest, most ordinary moment wraps up as the sun sets and the air cools and our adult girls begin to drift back into their own lives. It’s the way of things, beginnings and endings and beginnings again.
The slightest bit of panic attempts to rise from within. I know not all moments are simple or ordinary or beautiful. Some are hard and painful. Because I've lived those too, I’m unsure of what the next moment holds. I want to stop time, to keep them close, to ensure wholeness. I want to freeze this moment and sit in its beauty, always. Yet, I’m required to keep moving down my path, keep going on my way.
As emotions start to unsteady me, as fear longs to overshadow joy, I pray. I reach for the one who knows, who loves me. I share my longing for things to stay just the way they are. And this knowing settles upon me, comforts me - I didn’t arrive in this simplest, most ordinary moment by standing still. I traveled a path, I journeyed a way, I lived a life. And I remember this scripture memorized as a child.
Trust in the LORD with all your heart,
and do not lean on your own understanding.
In all your ways acknowledge him,
and he will make straight your paths.
The panic lessens and fear loses its grip. He is with me on my traveled path. He walks near me as I journey on my way. Whatever the next ordinary moment holds, serene or difficult, he can make it straight, fill it with beauty, keep me whole.
Today is meant to be lived and cherished whatever it may hold. And then we keep going, into the next day, trusting and acknowledging him, the one who makes paths straight, the one who bestows wholeness, the one who can give beauty where sorrow once lived.