I sit at the hotel desk in the quiet hours of the morning. My day is filled with activity, a schedule that leads me from here to there and back again. I know my brain will fill as the hours progress; overload will take over. But right now, my mind is clear and I choose to sit in the quiet, my bible open and I pray. I pray for connection with the Holy, I pray for insight and understanding, I pray for eyes that see what matters.
My bible is open to Ecclesiastes chapter six. I’ve been here before. My previous visits are noted by green highlighter and blue pen. My eyes take in the words that held meaning the last time I was here. I see the phrase “power to enjoy” repeated on the page. It’s a gift from God, this ability to recognize value in our ordinary lot in life.
But today, I ponder a new phrase, “. . .but his soul is not satisfied with life’s good things.” These are the words Solomon used to describe a man who lacks nothing and actually has within his hands all that he desires. It is his lack of satisfaction rather than his lack of possessions that drives him to acquire more. He remains in a constant state of motion. He is tired, yet unable to rest.
This man who cannot rest has an appetite that cannot be satisfied. And I think of all I want, my goals, my dreams, my cravings, those longings that keep me on the run, keep me tired.
I realize that without the gift of the power to enjoy, satisfaction with the next goal achieved will not manifest. I will arrive, once again, with the compulsion to maintain my cadence. It will compel me to run instead of rest.
So, needing what we all need, I bow my head and ask for this gift, the gift of the power to enjoy. It’s a gift that unleashes satisfaction, that opens my eyes to the “enough” I already have in my hands, to the “enough” that fills every moment.
When I eat enough, I stop eating. When I sleep enough, I stop sleeping. When I work enough, I stop working. I stop when I’m satisfied; when I’m satisfied, I rest.
Father, give us all the ability to enjoy, bless us with satisfaction in our blessings, and thank you always for being our "enough."