We got our curliest blonde girl, the youngest one, moved into her dorm. Our flight home wasn’t until morning. On the sidewalk, our conversation lingered hoping to postpone a goodbye that would last two whole months. But good byes come when scheduled and our hoping and ignoring and wishing didn’t push it back one little bit.
She waves, a brave wave, that says, “I’m fine! Really!!!” But this mom knows that if she tries to whisper the smallest of words, tears will flow. I know because I know her like I know myself.
My mind panics as it wonders if I’ve told her everything, taught her everything, wonders if she will be ready for everything when I’m not there. And I long to give her just one more thing, something lasting, something to keep her brave. Just something to meet her everything.
Back at the hotel, after the last hugs and kisses, I open my bible to a verse that brings comfort.
“The Lord your God is in your midst, a mighty one who will save;
he will rejoice over you with gladness;
he will quiet you by his love;
he will exult over you with loud singing.” Zephaniah 3:16
My soul is quickly quieted as I hear God say, “I’ve got this, I’ve got her, I’ve got you!” With the acceptance of those words, I pick up my phone and text the one alone in her dorm room. I click each character until the encouragement held in Zephaniah shines back at me. I tell my girl that this is our verse, our verse for this first year of college. The one that will keep us close and held.
She sends back hearts and smiles and praise hands. And it all makes me wonder how I am comforted knowing that she is comforted. How is her heart my heart?
It makes me think of our comforting God. Does he feel comfort when we are comforted too? Is that why he quiets us with his love? Our hearts are his hearts and he loudly sings.
My head finds the pillow, my hand holds my phone. I see Zephaniah and hearts and praise hands. My soul praises the one who comforts, the one who sings, and I drift off knowing we are held, knowing that this beautiful something will meet our simply everything.